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Saturday, July 14th, 2007
1:04 am	jets to richmond boarding a jet to kentucky in 9 hours. you would do well to party like a rock star upon arrival of my package. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 15th, 2007
7:23 pm	stupid rabbits (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 25th, 2007
4:15 am	elizabethtown i just finished watching Elizabethtown, with Orlando Bloom(sigh) and Kirsten Dunst(double sigh). this was problematic for me for several reasons. i don't mean to say problematic, because that makes it seem like i have/had problems with it, which aside from him driving from east on 64 when you clearly see him driving down 65 just minutes before, i didn't. the "problems" rather were something else altogether. for one, it made me terribly homesick for a place that i almost literally have no desire to go back to, not for any duration at least. though maybe that was the point of it all. cameron crowe is a crazy fuck, so who knows. secondly, i HATE(of course i mean love) watching romantic movies like that. inevitably i get these wacky ideas of a perfect love, or if not a perfect love, then a perfect situation, or some other perfect something. we are only given a handful of perfect moments in our lives, and most of us are too stupid to take full advantage of them when they happen. i can only think of two for myself right now. thirdly, and this is also sort of a side note of a conversation that yale and i had earlier, is that that movie made it easier for me to be okay with being 24. i constantly wake up and wonder if the best things that could have happened to me have already passed, and if i'm too old to have wonderful experiences again. or as my conversation with my good friend yale summed up, even being a 30 year old with an almost family and a career means you can still enjoy yourself and not be june cleaver, or any other paradigm of suburbia. i don't know, all in all, my life is very bizarre right now. i'm trying to fight the feeling of being older and thinking like i should have everything worked out by now, but feeling in my heart that i just want to run around and do crazy shit, or at least have the ability to. my magnetic poetry came in today, which is exactly what i'm referring to, of course. this concept that i can still have magnetic poetry on my fridge at 24, on a fridge full of mountain dew and lamb chops(not Doug's dog) and shallots, in a studio apartment i pay for by myself, with funds from a bar i work in, where... you get the idea. this wonderfully obverse dichotomy i'm feeling in every aspect of my life is leaving me mentally winded and emotionally confused. i'm wondering if anyone else has thoughts on this. i mean all of you. comments? (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 12th, 2007
4:37 am	R.I.P Kurt Vonnegut, Jr. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, April 9th, 2007
4:15 pm	driven okay, so i've actually been in my new apartment for like a week, but it's still in the initial stages. the first things i did of course were set up my bed and my computer. i wanted to take pictures of all my stuff crammed into this tiny space, and then take more when i'm all done, but i forgot, so now you'll only get to see the end result. not today though. i'm off all day tomorrow though, and hopefully it'll be completed by then. i noticed that it was snowing in richmond the other day, which makes me laugh, because everyone was all making fun of me moving to seattle, where the weather is "so bad." well, while it was snowing there, it was 72 and sunny here. i went outside, read a book in this magnificient park by my new place, and generally loved my new neighborhood. i can't imagine why anyone would want to live anywhere other than Capitol Hill. i'm also way into only working one job right now, especially when that one job doesn't begin til 4 in the afternoon some days, and 9 at night on others. i've been able to play video games and such again, which is nice, and i get reading done again, and i even get to drink again. birthday's coming up, and i'm trying to decide if i'm excited about it this year. it's so odd, because i've heard so many people over the years talk about how they "hated their 20's" and how their 30's are the best, and i'm so confused. i have no problem with my 20's, and i wonder if that's something they all did wrong, or if 30's are really that good, or is it just in comparison? i look back at high school and know that i hated that, but at the time i liked it, so maybe it's similar? i don't want to hate my 20's though, especially since right now they seem really enjoyable, so i'm hoping all those people just did something wrong. not that i'm doing anything right or whatever, but ya... enough of that, laundry time. kick it. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 21st, 2007
10:52 pm	moving out so i'm putting my computer in storage for a week, because of the moving situation. so if anyone needs me, you know my number, or you don't, and i'll be checking randomly. see you guys in my new studio in a week or so. lovesies (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 8th, 2007
12:38 pm	a couple things for one. i dropped my phone on sunday and had to get a new phone. for a week or so i'm going to be having a new number. not that anyone who reads my journal calls me or texts me, but still, if you had thought about it, you can comment and i'll give you the temporary number. this of course also means that i got a camera phone, which rocks, because there's so many times i'm going somewhere and think "man i wish i had a picture of that, that's crazy." so now it can happen. two, i work tonight from 4 to 9, which is not all that exciting, but after that, my brother and i are going to see the midnight showing of the 300!! i work from 5 AM til 11 pm tomorrow, and watching the movie tonight will give me like no sleep, but i believe that it'll be worth it. "this is insane" "no, this is SPARTA!" can i get a hoo hah two times tuesday for that? i thought so. peace, love, and mountain dew everyone (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 4th, 2007
10:25 pm	i get sad i don't know what sort of fucked up empathy design God had in mind when He made me, but i don't really enjoy it much. i get sad over the stupidest things. i get sad when i see someone run for the bus that i'm on, and it pulls away and they don't get on it. i get sad when the same people come into Noah's every morning and order the same thing, in the same tone of voice. i get sad at little things that shouldn't matter to me but totally do. the worst, saddest thing was the other day. this lady came into work and wanted to know if we would donate something for some silent auction at her kid's school. this of course isn't sad to me, it's perfectly normal. what was sad was that an hour later, when i had clocked out and gone to sit at the bus stop, i noticed her walking past me with a folder in her hand. obviously she was still walking around Queen Anne trying to get donations for her kid's thing. what i noticed most of all was that her foot was in one of those brace things, that you can walk on, but is obviously injured. what i also noticed was that it was raining, as it does here. and i couldn't help but get profoundly sad at this lady who was walking up and down this street, trying to get donations for her child's school, with a severely injured foot, in the rain. these donations weren't even for her, they were for her child, who more than likely would tell their mom how unfair life was at some point, and how much they hate her, and how unhappy they are. i get sad thinking about it now, because i can't get the thought of that lady hobbling down the sidewalk out of my head. it makes me think of all the money my parents wasted on me growing up, and how they bought me toys i don't even remember now, when they could have been using that money to pay off debt, or buy food. it reminds me of all the times one of my parents would sit in their car and wait for the band bus to get back from some competition in high school, at 2 in the morning. it makes me think of the time when i was in middle school, and school got out early and i went to my neighbor's house and played SNES for 2 hours, and i didn't even think about anything else, until my dad showed up, and he had been worried, and he had been standing at the bus stop waiting for me with a rain coat, because it was supposed to rain really badly and that's why we got out of school early, and i still to this day picture my dad standing there waiting for me, and it makes me so sad. i can't help but think how selfish i was as a child, and how selfish most children are, and it depresses the hell out of me. everything our parents give up for us, and we never quite find a way to repay them. it makes my stomach clench like a fist of some fighter right before an uppercut, and it makes my heart feel small enough to shove inside a fly's body. i don't cry, but i feel like i should, and i feel like i'm the most useless human being there ever was. i get sad, and i don't know how to fix it. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 18th, 2007
10:32 pm	writing cult a couple weeks ago, my friend ryan packer and my pseudo-girlfriend jaclyn, decided to start a "writing collective" wherein they would sit around together and help each other write(as jaclyn has her degree in creative writing, and ryan likes to write). they invited anyone who wants to join, and ryan tiffany showed up last week. this week, her friend jamie came over. i have yet to attend a meeting of what i have deemed, "their cult." i think everyone will agree this is odd, because i love writing as well, and i'm certain would be quite at home in that sort of situation. but some part of me keeps me away. it may be because i have a horrible aversion to scripted writing, where someone says, okay, write, and i have to do it. it also may be because i do my best writing alone, and away from prying eyes. this is not to say i won't eventually have someone read what i've written, but at the time, i want no part of them. the interesting/odd part, is that now, after weeks, i am writing. of course this is just some silly writing on a webpage, and not deep, philosophical, intense writing, but somehow, them talking about writing and being around that, has prompted me to do just that. for those of you who remember my "craig stories," i have one floating around in my head, i just need to find a good starting place and put it to paper. after the move, i hope to do that, along with a hundred other things. anyway, i think it should be time for this to end... good writing to you all. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 25th, 2007
8:53 pm	not me smoking cloves, listening to Bloc Party, and walking through the crisp midwinter Seattle weather. if 5 years ago you had told me this would be me, i would have found that utterly impossible(mostly because i had no idea who Bloc Party was at the time). this is not to say i've changed dramatically as a person, or that in any way i'm upset with my life(any more than a typical emo kid is), but rather that my life is so different today than i had ever planned on it being. i'll be 24 in a few months, and it seems like when i entered U of L in 2001 i had a lot more planned out than working two jobs in the pacific northwest. whatever man, shit happens for a reason. if danielle hadn't broken up with me, i still might be in school. if kate hadn't broken up with me, i'd still be in kentucky. what the fuck ever, who cares. shit is what it is, and no one is any worse off because of it. 24 is just a number, not unlike 23. Current Music: Panic! at the Disco- Time to Dance (Comment on this)
Monday, January 8th, 2007
9:13 pm	delorted! i know i know, this is like old school noah, back when he wore hoodies and listened to Dashboard. 3 updates in like a week? i deleted abigail from my myspace the other day, in a fit of closure on my part, and then, 2 days later, while at work, and under extreme pressure from my co-workers who love me, deleted her from my phone. i almost deleted kate as well, and thought to myself how i should have done that forever ago, but didn't have friends back then telling me i should, like i do/did with abigail. i love my friends at noah's. and pretty soon they're all leaving. gabriel and erik are gone. ryan's going to a new store. lydia will most likely quit soon, and ryan packer put his two weeks in today... suck. there's this line from a Straylight Run song right now, that i can't get out of my head, because it's sadly totally me. but it's "and i've become content with this life that i lead, where i drink too much and don't believe in much of anything." ya... i really just wanted to tell you how i deleted abigail, and how i listen to Straylight Run and how if anyone wants to buy me something within the next 15 hours, they should get me this i wear a medium or small, thanks. also, for those of you who didn't know i was a humungo dork, i'm involved in Fantasy Congress right now. peace, love, and mountain dew Current Music: the Best Deceptions- Dashboard Confessional (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 4th, 2007
9:49 pm	hail and firestone what is the world coming to when 2 days go by without an update from chris? do you kids remember when he and i used to update like balls? and ian too. hell, even yale used to tell us what was up with him. now i'm lucky if i know what's going on in megan's life... stupid growing old. what are we going to do? sometimes, and when i say sometimes i mean once every couple months or so, i think about what it's like to grow old, and what it'll be like to die, and how what if there's nothing else, and you just cease to exist. needless to say, this gets me terribly anxious, and i often can't shake the though from my head, and then i get all scared, and think about how little i've done with my life, and how i should be doing something right now, but i am doing stuff. i mean, i have two jobs, friends, a girl(sorta), and i don't know, maybe from an objective viewer i'm not doing as much. today, in my city, it was way sunny outside, and it just started hailing, a lot... like, it covered the ground it was hailing so much. it was insane. the O.C. is getting cancelled. while this is obviously bad news, it's not really all that upsetting. i hate to say that it's not as good as when it started, but it's really not. i understand mischa barton probably had better things to do(me) but she was a pretty big part of the show, and the writing has changed, and, maybe it's just because at the time it was fresh and new(for a soap opera) but now it's lost on me. also my life has changed considerably since then. so maybe in my mind things are different, so it's different. thoghts? anywho, so i promised a couple posts(like a month) ago that i would talk about girlie, emo style things. i think the first was the girl who i'm sorta seeing right now. her name's jaclyn, and she's totally rock and roll. she has a movie collection to die for, something like 200 movies, and it's hella good shit, such as the Die Hard Triology, all the X-Men movies(including 1.5, who has that?) and the Royal Tenenbaums(!). she also has chick flicks, because, well, she is a chick. point being, she's totally fun to be around, and i have a great time with her, but man dating still, after all this time, is not in the part of my mind labeled "a fun time." luckily for me, she's totally cool with this, which is huge for me, because girls are normally like "when are we going to take this to the next level?" which of course for guys means anal, but for chicks means flowers and chocolates. this is not to say i have any problem with those things, just that she doesn't seem to mind not getting them. i mean, her favorite part of Last Man Standing is when he's fucking the prostitute and blows the guy away naked, because as she said "oh man, that was cool." this is a girl you don't let get away, okay? the other girl i mentioned before was abigail, which now seems rather anachronistic, because yes, then, i missed her a lot, and even now, i can feel that it would be nice to still you know, whatever, but really, she's partly dead to me. every time i get a text from her anymore, it's like "don't say those things, i have a boyfriend now." or something along those lines. as if i wasn't fully aware of the fact. she seems like the kind of girl, upon retrospect, who has to always have a boyfriend, or else she implodes emotionally, which is fine with me, but i don't know how God feels about that. (side note, i spent more time talking about jaclyn than abigail; this is a good thing) oh and the third girl. nora zehetner... anyone who has seen one of my favorite movies of all time, the amazingly well crafted Brick, starring Joseph Gordon-Levitt knows all about my Nora. she played the femme fatale, Laura, and i'm in love with her. she also had a short stint on Heroes, the show on NBC that i watched for a bit, til the episode where she DIED! come on guys, don't kill my baby like that, especially not with Sirus shooting her in the face. anyone who hasn't seen Brick should go out immediately and watch it. seriously, i'll wait... this is by far the longest post i've had in at least a year. i work noah's and barca tomorrow, so it'll be saturday before you get more from me. don't get the shakes. Current Music: I'm Her Slave- the Afghan Whigs (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, January 1st, 2007
2:32 am	fucking 'A' New Year's Eve i've gotten some comments recently about how i don't post enough, or at all for that matter, and apparently some people actually enjoy reading about my life. moreover, it's new year's eve, which is a perfect time to update. i'm goin to keep this moderately short though, as i need to shower and go out for drinksies. one, i have a second job now. it's at a place called Barca, and it's in Capitol Hill which is totally awesome, and i'm probably going to go there for at least a little while tonight to drink with jaclyn. two, jaclyn is the girl right now. those of you who have any sort of history understand that, danielle maybe most of all. while we are not boyfriend and girlfriend we are hanging out on a regular basis and doing couple-ish things. this has both its pros and cons. mostly pros though. three, noah's officially sucks more than the suckiest thing out there. i mean it sucks more than getting dumped or more than losing money or more than realizing you like Panic! at the Disco. all of these things have happened to me, so understand that i am a credible source. when i first started typing this, i expected great thoughts to come to fruition, but it's looking bad for that, and i really desperately want this post to mean something. for instance, one year, on my birthday, my 20th i think, i talked about all the crazy shit that had changed in the last year. like alycia dying, dropping out of college, danielle dumping me, you know, the usual. anyway, i feel like something akin to that should happen here, now. so let me start. i think easily the biggest thing is moving to seattle. that was by far an insane choice on my part. not in any bad way, but just to think i up and moved 2000 miles away from almost everyone i know, save my brother. i left behind all my louisville buddies(those that were left), my extended family(parents and sister still in south korea as you know) and of course the girl that changed my life the most. leaving Kate behind was easily the hardest thing for me to do this year. i've had some time to reflect on it all, a year really, and while her dumping me sucked, and while leaving richmond/kentucky to get away from her maybe have been over dramatic at the time, it's actually been on of the greatest things ever. i've met some amazing people in seattle. gabriel has become my newest confidante, and ryan, while technically my boss, is one of the greatest friends a guy could hope for. jaclyn is a special girl with lots and lots to teach me about being happy. linnea makes smiles easier and easier to come. without erik i wouldn't know that being a white guy and a ninja can happen without chris farley, and to boot he's a truly wonderful soul with advice for days. lydia is the easiest person to talk to in the world, and probably knows the most about me of anyone right now. topher, while not seeing him as often as i'd like, deserves a lot better than he's gotten recently, and i aim to help that. tim also deserves an award, not only for greatest hug giver, but just for being able to listen and understand anything and everything. so yes, changing city's wacked out my sleep pattern for a couple weeks, and made it more difficult to see some people who i had grown accustomed to seeing on a regular basis and who i'd like to be closer to me now, but honestly, it was the best move overall. essentially, Kate, i love you to death, and i always will, but it was the wrong time for us, and there may not be a right time. courtney is a lucky guy. fucking sentimental... i gotta shower and shit. i'll update again tomorrow, i feel a flood coming on of writing in the next couple days. to those of you who will be celebrating the solar new year, i hope you usher it in with poise and dignity. for those of you, who like me, have recently discovered your lineage coincides with that of Cao Cao, powerful warlord during the Three Kingdoms era of China's history, and will therefore be celebrating your new year on february 18th, i look forward to ridding the world of Nian through firecrackers and welcoming the Boar to our life. peace, love, and mountain dew kids Current Mood: jubilant Current Music: Wouldn't Have it Any Other Way- the Streets (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 22nd, 2006
1:31 am	when you run out of things to burn... you have to set yourself on fire. hey kids. so if this journal post were a fruit based paste, it would be ketchup, because that's all this is, catching up. kentucky was grand. i mean a regular A+. i saw kyle, angel, megan, bk, dougie, kat, and of course my yale bear. i also met yale's girlfriend, who was short and cute and jewish, everything yale is perfect for. i wish i could have seen chris, but he had some "function" that he was "required" to attend, wherein his "niece" was having her "first birthday." it all sounded a little fishy to me, but what do i know. upon first arrival, i was really glad to be back, just to see all my friends and drive through all the neighborhoods i used to stomp around(read, drive around aimlessly for hours). then the more i was there, the more i remembered why i had left, and finally, on monday when i flew out into the blue skies, i was thankful to be gone again. gone from all those silly memories. i succeeded in drinking every night i was there, which was actually something i hadn't done since i'd left that state. i also got to see almost the entirety of my lovely family. i missed my grandmother, which was upsetting, but seeing my amazingly rock and roll cousin megan was the best. of course when i got back into town, my party swept congress as a sort of welcome home present i suppose. now i'm debating whether or not to get a second job, since election season is over and i'm bored more often than not. my miserable check which included my time away in kentucky came in today, and let me tell you, i better not spend this all in one place. i feel like i had more to talk about, like the girl i've sorta been seeing, and the girl i miss a lot(abigail) and the girls i'll never be with(Nora Zehetner), and numerous other emo related tidbits, but i can't seem to focus on them. i promise beyond promise, later tonight i'll discuss them all in full. until then, all my love. Current Music: Coast to Coast- Elliot Smith (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 17th, 2006
5:41 pm	politics free remember how i was SO excited about being off the next day in my last post? that would have been thursday, and i was off friday. ya, well, i drank, and went to El Diablo(a coffee shop) and hung out with my friend linnea while she was closing, and then gabe texted me and told me to meet him at the 5 Spot, so i did, and had a pork chop, because, who the hell doesn't want a pork chop after drinking, and then i paid for everyone's meal, because, i'm crazy like that, like anyone from back home will tell you. anyway, so i woke up friday(the day i was excited about being off) and was hungover as shit, or so i thought. so i went back to sleep, being as i was off, and woke up a couple hours later, still feeling like someone decided they wanted to use my body in their wrestling practice. i moved to the couch in the living room, flipped on MSNBC, watched Hardball and other stuff, then passed out for hours. when i finally woke up at 7 that night, i had a fever. so my day off this last week was spent in bed. bag that. when i went into work on saturday, it turns out a lot of people were sick the day before, so something clearly went around. (i'm going to make this post as straight forward as possible) after work, i put on my headphones, set the alarm, locked the doors and walked across the street like i do every day. as i was walking past Tully's, i heard someone shouting "hey" at me, so i turned slightly, and saw it was michael, gabe's roommate. as i was still slightly under the weather, and in the mood to go home, i didn't stop, but simply nodded at him and smiled. as i was turning back around, i realized that abigail had been sitting next to him, and now she probably thinks i went out of my way to ignore her, which bothers me only so much as i can think of lots better ways to hurt her feelings than that, just ask kate. plus, she really can't get too worked up about it, as she initiated the whole "ignore the balls out of this guy who adores me" game. needless to say, i've felt under the weather ever since my run in with the plague, including, but not limited to, shoulder cancer, back cancer, and general blahness. today is my day off, and i woke up at 7:30, randomly... i wonder if abigail reads my journal. i'll update again later. promisies Current Music: superdrag- who sucked out the feeling (Comment on this)
Friday, October 13th, 2006
3:10 am	worksies bears pretty much i forgot to make a produce order today before i left, and now i HAVE to go back up to the store to do it, because otherwise we'll be out of fruit and lettuce and crazy shit like that for the whole weekend. i was planning on drinking tonight, which i actually am still going to do, but now i have to do this first. i'm also for some reason seriously considering renting Reservoir Dogs. i'm not sure where the idea came from, but it seems like a good one. there's this new chick who started at the coffee shop across the street today. totally out of my league, in the most precise definition of the word, but i think it would be hilarious if i did somehow get with her, because then it would seem like it was a breeding ground for girls i dig. this chick seems nowhere near as awesome as abigail is. or was, for that matter, since she won't even come close to talking to me anymore, which not only means i don't know if she's still cool, but also leads me to believe she's not. missing her is in my top 8 on myspace, nuzzled between cashews i bought from Trader Joe's on tuesday and the fact that i'm off work tomorrow. oh man, so russ feingold is coming to town next saturday, and that's the weekend gabriel is going out of town, so i'll end up having to work, but i'm trying so hard to figure out a way to go see him. yea russ feingold. my cat has been doing this trick the last couple days where she's mrs whiny pants, and won't let me sleep because of her mewing. i told one of the girls at work about it today, and she said her's has been doing it to, and we decided there might be an earthquake about to happen in the next couple days for us. so let's all cross our fingers. alright, eff this johns, i'm gone to order cucumbers and grapes et al. (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 5th, 2006
8:59 am	lanternesque kyle complimented me on my, what i guess are journal writing skills, the other day, and now i'm horribly self-conscious about writing now(among being self-conscious about a number of other things). so we'll see if i can stay at his level. i'm sitting in front of my computer, updating, at 9 in the morning. this never happens, because the only time i'm up this early is for work, and as many people will tell you, i tend to wait til the last moment to get up, shower, and run(quite literally) out the door. this morning though, is thursday, so i always get suckered into doing one of our deliveries at work. i won't get into the details, as it's terribly boring, but ya, i have to get up, and now i'm home, before i go BACK to work, to close. pretty much i get raped at work, and not in that good way, but rather without lube. i went the whole day yesterday without talking to abigail, which in itself isn't much of a feat, being that she never really talks to me either. so i guess the way to put it would be, i didn't text her in hopes that she would magically stop ignoring the fuck out of me, for reasons only an 18 year old girl can have. luckily my brother and i watched a few episodes of Rome last night, and don't worry, Pompey gets killed in the show too. really quickly, i need to comment on the mark foley scandal, mainly because i know that some of the people who read my journal back home are a tad conservative, and they always seem to get mad when i spout my "liberal lies." now, it would be enough for mark foley to have molested little boys, or where it stands right now, have written them overly friendly messages. that's cool man, well, not cool, but that's enough to make me think about the sheer hypocrisy that republicans insist on acting on when they tell the democrats that they don't have any values. however, once you couple this with the fact that the leadership put this man in charge of the House Caucus on Missing and Exploited Children, it just gets silly. no need to bring up the fact that it now seems as though on several ocassions did someone tell the leadership about what the former congressman was doing and they did nothing about it. to top it all off though, and this is by far my most pleasing memory of this 109th Congress, is how the republicans are now attempting to blame this on the democrats. and i don't mean in that cute way like, "oh you silly liberals, with your fag marriages, you opened the door for this"(which i'm sure they'll also be trying) but rather in the way that the republicans are saying that the democrats have leaked this information for political gain. no, they did it because LITTLE BOYS WERE BEING MOLESTED. oh, plus matt drugdge, good old drudgie himself, is playing the david cross card, and claiming the little boys were asking for it, with their messages. i can only guess he's being silly and all that jazz, but if not, congrats to him. oh oh oh, i almost forgot how sean hannity(how i loathe thee) brought up bill clinton and monica lewinsky, which i'm sure some of you are thinking "ya, what about that." well let's point out a couple key differences. umm, one, monica was a GIRL. two, monica was 22, which is about how old i am, and these pages were 14 to 16, which is about how old my sister is. ya, those scenarios are similar enough, let's continue saying what terrible people democrats are, except for the sheer fact that we don't fuck little boys... i need to get in the shower and go off and make bagel magic. Current Music: Kings of Convenience- I'd Rather Dance with You (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 3rd, 2006
10:39 pm	ian's birthday today is ian's birthday. let me try and explain how happy this makes me. if it weren't for ian, i can almost guarantee you half the good things in my life would never have happened. if i were a praying man, i would drop down on my knees and thank God a hundred times for ian in my life. ian is the greatest, most wonderful, entirely too amazing person i have ever known. even though he moved to L.A. while i was in kentucky, then moved to NYC shortly after i moved to seattle, i still feel as close to him as when we were roommates on Oak Street. if every person in the world had a friend like ian, i would place heavy bets that there would be no crime or poverty or sickness. i haven't seen ian in almost a year, and i miss him terribly. if you were to form a mathematical equation, adding how much i miss kate, danielle, kat, bethany, and abigail, you would still be an infinity away from quantifying how much i miss my lunch box... did you know that polar bear's fur isn't white? happy birthday ian, i love you more than you could ever know. Current Music: Goo Goo Dolls- January Friend (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 27th, 2006
6:32 pm	past tense i think i might have talked about this once before, like less than a year ago, but i might not have, but even if i had, it's taken on a different form now. it's about this; when i lived in the apartment on 4th street, i used to remember walking home all the time, from work or wherever, during the summer, and wishing that as i got closer i'd be able to make out Kate's car in front of the apartment. she was living in indiana that summer, and i always wanted her to have driven down randomly and parked and waited in the house to surprise me. obviously, that never happened, because well, she didn't give that much of a shit. which is cool, looking back on it, because she's dating a guy now who plays literally the shittiest music i've ever heard. you all know me, i'm pretty much a music whore and have no tastes outside of really bad rap or country, and can tolerate, hell, enjoy most things. i'm the guy who can switch from listening to ryan cabrerra to at the drive-in to straylight run and finish it all up with a resounding john michael montgomery. so i think you understand that this music is really bad. but she loves him, as she loves every guy she dates, and she must be happy, for now, as she is, so i won't talk more about it. i've digressed beyond belief. the point was, now that abigail and i are, done i guess would be the word, again, i find myself wishing to come home and see her car parked outside my house. it happened once with her, back when we first started hanging out. i had gone to see Shakespeare in the Park(a Midsummer's Night Dream to be exact) and then gone drinking with a friend of mine, and when i got home, her cute little white honda civic was sitting there, and i went up the stairs and she was at the door waiting for me. that was one of the best moments of my life. it's those little dreams or hopes you have, that when they come true, make life awesome. obviously this hasn't happened again, but i still wish for it; maybe one day. like kate, she too has found a new guy, mere moments after ripping my heart from its cozy manor of content. this wouldn't be much of a problem for me, outside the fact that i'm terribly emo, and therefore am either torturing myself about losing some girl, or pining after another one, except for the fact that from what i've been able to ascertain, she's going through the exact same steps with him that she did with me, which really makes me worry more for him than for me. she has long claws, this beast of love, and they are razor sharp and barbed, and i kid you not, they stay in longer than you would think possible and hurt more than they did the last time they found their way into your soft and supple soul. i think the important part to remember, is that i really miss abigail a lot. she was tons of fun, and we really liked each other. i'd do anything to convince her. convince her of what you say? then you haven't been reading my journal long. ahh, P.S. someone commented on my last entry with simply "(((noah)))" i'm not sure who that is, or what that was supposed to convey, or really anything. any help would be marvelous. thanks Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: the faint- take me to the hospital (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, September 22nd, 2006
10:30 pm	rant-tastic lots of stuff i want to talk about. this could be because i've been drinking, or it could be because i like to talk. or any combination of the two. first off, after i get done typing this, i'm going to play a game called "Robotrek" for SNES. it's an RPG, sorta, but it's got robots, and you build them, and... it's pretty sweet, and i only play it when i'm drunk. more games i play when i'm drunk: Joust, the Sims, Tropico, looking at pictures of abigail, online poker, et al... moving on, abigail and i got "back together" again for a while in the last couple days, and then she promptly "broke up" with me again. she has my louisville hoodie, which is one of my favorite hoodies, as it reminds me of home. getting it back means i get to see her, which makes me happy, but seeing her will be awkward, at best. i'm fairly good at becoming increasingly awkward around girls i've made out with. speaking of girls i'd like to make out with, the good Senator of Washington won her primary, with 91% of the vote, which no imcumbent this year has been able to garner from their base in the primary. as of the last poll, she had extended her gap over her Republican challenger to 13 points. i wouldn't mind that lead holding. another interesting fact, is that this weekend is oktoberfest, more than likely in many places, but also in seattle, which is where i live, for those of you who read this and had absolutely no clue where i had been the last few months. sam white, you put a picture of bush, cheney, and hastert on your live journal. why? i don't know what feeling that was supposed to elicit, or what you were trying to say with it. any thoughts would be helpful. plus, don't hate your mom, she's a good person, trust me. hate school if you want, that i'll stand by you on, as Central is a veritable hippopotamus's asshole. i'm telling you, james joyce would be proud if he were to read my journal right now. i have so much more to say, which is most likely a byproduct of the alcohol of which my genes have made me so weak to resist, but ironically, is making it more difficult to type. moreover, Robotrek is calling. until then, everyone enjoy your days Current Music: the decemberists- Chimbley Sweep (1 Comment |Comment on this)